Pop Sonnet #1520

This sickening feeling deep inside
The kind that I cannot shake
And when the darkness comes to ride
About the fault that is my wake

To feel the guilt of my problems deep
And anxiety that creeps
Next to nothing there is sleep
That cannot shake the keep

The way it defeats all of my being
One day less of all the seeing
Now I realize agreeing
Got me nowhere in the fleeing

So the choice is set in stone
And now I am so all alone

Pop Sonnet #1521

Of course if I don't get well soon
Make your case for sleeping in
Knowing that my head hurts at noon
Because I cannot win

With this situation that hurts so bad
Feeling like I betrayed my mom and dad
And there is no reason to have had
But that is why I am so sad

And the poet turns to blue
For the sake of all of you
Cannot lie I'm going through
The magic is dying too

And if I finish this art
I still have a broken heart

Pop Sonnet #1522

A glimpse of waves that Summer brings
Finding out most everything
Causal determinant to sting
What more that I can sing

About the love that we once were
Involved in so heavily still
And to bring about the stir
That is numbed by the pill

All I was doing was trying to cure
The family before they died
Now I know my futile blur
Was worse because I tried

And the darkness flows right in
And I feel it is worse than sin

Pop Sonnet #1523

What I love is being killed
Right around the days appealed
Wonder if there is a sealed
Certainty that just four wheeled

Into outer space we go
Awful what we now know
And for all that wasted throw
Can I really sink so low

That I take it all on me
Have to now for this to be
Blinding what I use to see
And shattering that feeling flee

From the pain that hurts so much
Names were calling such and such

Pop Sonnet #1524

If I could only just escape
From the stress that kills
I would find a decent scrape
That brings about the hills

Of loops that are inviting
Cannot feel so much before
The waves of all my family fighting
And walking through the door

Of the sanity that left
When I tried to defend
Cannot lift the heft
Still I need a friend

But when the names go back and forth
I will try to like the Fourth

Pop Sonnet #1525

The time has come to put aside
The anger that I feel inside
Unless it that feeling hide
And where the criminal abide

Because I know that it still hurts
That choice could have been
Different than a just desert
For the timing was for then

That waking music of the death
Of love and anything like it
Until that one last breath
That you could try to spike fit

So that someone else is ruined
And that love has reached a true end

Pop Sonnet #1526

After awhile you feel so horrid
That the overall figure of sadness
Leads you to that awful torrid
Of the only gain of madness

To be as lonely as I feel
Could compromise the dead
When will there be time to heal
Was it something that we said

To have an anger torch the hand
That played for a once okay
And disappears into quick sand
Until I ruin all the day

The only way for me to forget
Is to go and feel the hit

Pop Sonnet #1527

So maybe it will end all right
Unless there are more options still
That take a fancy type of flight
Into consideration will

That type of nonsense frustrating
Find the situation dares
To be in the throes of waiting
For no one seems to care

About the outcome of mine own
That to the dogs has been thrown
Could have left all well alone
But now the feeling is a groan

Of a sensation that can be confused
When I feel that I am used

Pop Sonnet #1528

Things today have gotten dark
Can it be because of choices
Or were feeling like the park
To forget the voices

In my head are as bad as real
Going back to feel the waste
Of time that further seal
All the trouble that I taste

For an opening in my mind
Lost the race against you all
And the troubles I will find
Cause the words to even stall

So if joy has fled the scene
I will collapse when I lean

Pop Sonnet #1529

Any tips on how to forget
What is set in stone already
And if I knew when to quit
I would be more steady

For plans to cycle in the dust
Of lost emotions are my loss
What can I change what must
And pray back to the cross

That someone may heal me yet
Unless I have caused more pain
And if you go back to where I set
The years that flushed down the drain

Hopefully tomorrow will bring joy
That would be of better employ